20s And It's Pressure

I swear, the moment you turn 20,omo everybody starts acting like you've been sent the PDF of your life. 😭 "So... what's the plan?( Maybe ask my mum 😔) "When are you graduating?(In six years silly) "What do you want to do with your life?(I wan become dokinta) "Where do you see yourself in five years?(Probably in my final year) Omo... I don't even know what I'm eating tomorrow. 🧍🏽♀️😂 One minute I'm stressing over assignments. 📚 The next minute I'm refreshing my Substack to see if one more person subscribed. 👀 Then I'm searching for remote writing jobs, calculating dollar rates, and convincing myself that this writing thing will pay my bills one day. 💻🥲 It's like everybody expects you to have your whole life mapped out already. Meanwhile, I'm just trying not to panic. 🐸 Then you open TikTok... mistake. 😭 One person my age just relocated. ✈️ Another one is tweeting about making their first $10k. 💸 Someone is engaged. 💍 Someone bought a car. 🚗 Someone else is already calling themselves a CEO. 👩🏽💼 Meanwhile, my biggest achievement this week was submitting an assignment before the deadline ,remembering to drink water and my stir fry pasta coming out edible 😭 You start asking yourself, "Am I behind?" Honestly... I ask myself that too 🥹 A lot. But maybe we're asking the wrong question. 🤍 Maybe 20 isn't the age to have everything figured out. Maybe it's the age to try things. 🌱 To start again. To change your mind. To discover what actually makes you happy. 🦋 A few weeks ago, I started sharing my writing online. 💚 I didn't know if anybody would read it. Then people started liking it. Commenting. Subscribing. Every new subscriber genuinely makes me smile because it reminds me that maybe... just maybe... I'm building something. 🥹✨ For one minute I feel like, "Yeah, I think I'm on the right path." Then the next morning I'm questioning every life decision I've ever made. 😭🐥 That's literally what being 20 feels like. You're motivated on Monday. 💪🏽 Confused by Wednesday. 🤡 Feeling like the main character on Friday. 💅🏽 Having an identity crisis by Sunday night. 😭 It's actually a full-time job. 😂 So if you're reading this and you also feel like everyone else has life figured out except you... This is your reminder that social media is a highlight reel, not the whole movie. 🎬 You're not failing. You're not late. You're not the only one figuring things out. You're just growing. 🌱🐢 And maybe that's what 20 is supposed to look like. No blueprint. Just tiny steps. Tiny wins. Lots of questions. A little faith. And enough courage to keep showing up anyway. 💚✨ We'll figure it out. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow. But we will. 🦋🤍